Wednesday, 31 January 2007

Giving up

I would guess that most people would find it unbelievable how happy I am. I find it somewhat unbelievable myself. Because having spent a life time basically failing to achieve every adult desire my heart wished for, I discover as it looks more and more likely that I will never achieve those things, that actually - and this is the funny part - I don't care all that much. Perhaps I never did. Who knows. And in seeing the fineness of not having my heart's every desire, I feel curiously blissful. Someone told me the other day that there is a Taoist maxim: Go nowhere, do nothing! Strangely without meaning to at all, I have become an absolute master at this.

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